Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Another week more to go is CNY le. So excited can finally have a long rest le. 2 more day pay day. Lagi happy...... Haha.....
This yr CNY alot of burden. Haiz...... No choice, have to help to contribute Abit more on family expenses on CNY. Dunno dis yr will it be a smooth yr too..... I believe it will.
This afternoon watched a variety show, is abt my favorite writer by e name 吴淡如 . Bcos of her 1 sentence i felt i shld be like one n have more confidence- 有自信的女人, 最美. I believe so too. So CNY resolution is to be a 有自信的女人! 加油,加油哦!
Saturday, January 26, 2008
E salad i mentioned is for this dish. Looks nice. Taste yummy too. M so glad my dad finish e whole salad. So happy! Really am.
Sometimes i felt like a Kid but i have to bear with alot or burdens n have to be so strong infront of other pple. Everytime i need help pple would just give me empty promises. Nowadays pple give help with conditions. I knw i'm useless. Need pple to give me support n help but whenever is needed other party would just keep quiet. I told myself i shld give myself some pride le. I dun blame those who gave empty promises, but i appreciated wat they gave me n teached me. Came back from punggol, m tired le but now i can't sleep. I'm tellin myself tonight again. I need to perk up. M not gonna ask too much from myself, m not going to force myself for anyone. Even though i'll be lonely, just let it be. Gonna put somethi aside for myself, never ever ask anyone for help anymore. Never ever let anyone step into my life n mess it up again. Is not i've changed but i only just been taught to be wiser. 谁逼使我冷漠 谁勾起我共鸣 没法望清这时这份浓情
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Intend to use this strawberrys for fruits salad, for a dish on my dad's bdae. They shld look good ba, as we will be cookin at home so we deserve better n healthier fruits not like some resturants they just use canned fruits
It's been a long time since i wrote somethi here. I dunno y, just dun feel like writting le.
Recently, i've stopped callin them or pick up their calls le. Even though sometimes i felt lonely but even with them my life did not improve much too. Late le, i shld be in bed le. Sweet dreamz.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Saw this dress that day while shoppin with Dom n Franz. Very nice. Dunno when i can ever wear it lor..... Haiz...... Meant to be alone tonight ba. Suddenly got Abit of lost..... Just had my chivas. Now need to go bed le. Nite..... :-*:-*
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Cleaning e house half way n Saw this pic on singapore post newsletter. Is my yr- rabbit, this rabbit is vain de lor. Haha.....
Today KZ came up, nothing happen. I dunno, i really give on him le. He come or not, call or not. I dun give a damn anymore le.
Wanted to give him a call, but i stopped myself, told myself after that day i left his house. We cannot have anythi from this relationship. He got his own life. Anything, he'll just call me de. Sometimes i dun understand man or even pple ard me. Just let them do Watever they want, n wat i get is wat i hope for can le. Not gonna let them step over me or feel guilty for Watever i've done. Cos i've been doing things which is obliging pple or make pple feel good or better, in e end no one care how i feel. Since they dun feel guilty or feel bad for doing things which will hurt me so y shld i feel guitly.
Time to go back cleaning le. 
沙漠寂寞- 李羽君
我沿着沉默一直往下走 却困在寂寞沙漠
想着你的吻你的梦你给的海誓山偻
泪流尽 爱情也渐渐淡漠
就用谎言麻醉伤口
任凭心成铁痛失火 只有我露宿街口
沙漠寂寞中谁来爱我 你连回忆都不放过我 无路可走 也不能回头
你给的温柔都还在骗我
沙漠寂寞中谁来挽救
谁又在远处点亮霓红
忘记昨夜被你拥抱过 痛苦的感受
This few days had been thinking of that plc, that person. Ydae, Zoe's bf blue tooth me this song. I love it. Now, emotional love song can't do anythi to me anymore. 
放生 - 范逸承
地点是城市某个角落
时间在午夜时刻 无聊的人常在这里出莫 交换一种寂寞
我静静坐在你的身后
你似乎只想沉默
我猜我们的爱情已到尽头
无话可说 比争吵更折磨 不如就分手
放我一个人生活 请你双手不要在紧握
一个人我至少干净利落
沦落就沦落 爱闯祸就闯祸
我也放你一个人生活 你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
又何苦还要继续迁疚
我静静坐在你的身后
你似乎只想沉默
我猜我们的爱情已到尽头
无话可说 比争吵更折磨 不如就分手
放我一个人生活 请你双手不要在紧握
一个人我至少干净利落
沦落就沦落 爱闯祸就闯祸
我也放你一个人生活 你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
就彼此放手留下活口
爱的时候说过的诚诺
爱过以后就不要强求
从此分手不必再回头各自生活
曾经孤单加上孤单是爱火 燃烧过你和我
如今沉默加上沉默更沉默 再没有什么舍不的
放我一个人生活 请你双手不要在紧握
一个人我至少干净利落
沦落就沦落 爱闯祸就闯祸
我也放你一个人生活 你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
就彼此放生彼此留下 活口
Felt in love with this song at punggol. Just came back from there too. So tired le , must rest le. Sweet dreamz melody. Nite...... :-* 
Miss my bed lor, my blanket, my bolster, my sleepin partners...... Most of all, cannot say de lor, i knw wat i can cling on to wat i can't. I knw i can be a better me. Now must spend more time on myself, to make myself look good n have confidence. I really enjoyed myself e pass few nites, even though we had been drinking chivas, vodka n red wine for e pass few nites but we take it slow n enjoyed ourselves. Must have more of this kind of life.
Majority was over at Tampines n pasir ris, so quite like e unit over there, very peaceful n big. Thk will get a unit over there once i'm available to. 
Had been out since thursday Nite. Straight from thursday till sunday. Siow de lor, thurs, Dom n Franz came over to my plc to 'cho dai di' till abt 1am then friday Nite we went over to mel's plc till abt 4am, after sending all back i reached home abt 5 am le. Quickly had my bath, after i stepped back to my rm my mum woke up le, is lucky de lor, if not they'll nag, nag. nag n nag. Saturday bring Dom n Franz to do their CNY's shoppin. Then go over to punggol. Stay till abt 1 plus in e morn, e both of they had Abit of unhappines so i need to talk to them, by e time reached home is 3am le. Wah! Is tired de lor. sunday, we actually need to go gym but bcos of e stupid rain, all of us is late so never gym we went shoppin n coffee instead. Reached home almost 11pm le, jus finished bathing now gettin ready to K.O lor. Bought a new salt type body scrub. Just give it a try just now, now i feel so good with my burner lighted. Feel so relaxe......
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Saw this stray dog near my work Place. Sometimes i Thk this dog got no parents, no siblings. But he still manage to survive, find his own food n leisure. Now he is my new idol, knw y? Cos in this life u must learn to take care of urself, protect urself. We dun need to survive on anyone. But we must survive our life. No matter how hard, how tough our life is we still need to survive,
Last Nite had great tin with Dom, Franz n Mel. Mel did improve Abit on character but still need more polish lor. Cannot praise her too much if not she high way to heaven again.
我对昨晚的事还有余温, 是一场美好的回忆:-D
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Last Nite thought that drink some vodka le can sleep well. Parted with Dom n Franz still sleep at 2plus. 5 plus wake up again cos Kena sting by mosquito. Then wake up find n put on my jacket, apply medication oil on e stung then back to sleep. Wake up Abit late today. But still manage to reach by 9.30. If everyday no need to work but still can get paid, how nice...... Wishful thinkin. :-P Go back to work lor......
Had been using this picture for my blog, no time to take new pic or nice pic lor.
I've been out of love for 7th months le. Dunno wat went wrong, sianz...... My life so boring. Sometimes i see couple 逗嘴 even is boring but i envy them lor. Sometimes they quarrel for little things but when they need someone to share, big things or small things. At least They still got each other. Sometimes i see Dom n his partner, happy or not happy with each other but they still loved each other. Sometimes see then quarrel, i really 摇头....... Is always e same old prob. But sometimes they happy together keep 逗嘴, Even though 看了不是味道 but i still felt happy for them. I'm so lonely......
Sometimes i asked myself this qs, out of so many relationship, whom i loved e most? Honestly, i got no ans for that. Feel like gettin in love again but all e man around me Buay gan de lor. Once bitten, twice shy. Where can fall in love so easily. Sometimes, love is a strange thing. When u like someone, that doesn't mean other party would feel the same. When u feel that this is the right person for u n u willing to give ur all or even sacrifice everything for him, he might not feel that way too or even cannot see or feel wat u have done for him,
珍惜眼前人,抱紧眼前人. Is not easy to find someone that u loved, someone who loves u whole heartedly or even someone u loves n loves u too. Wishing all those loves birds, may u both walk hand in hand thru happines, sorrow, birth or death; happily ever after till e last days of ur life.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Today spent 8 hrs to clear n pack my room. Now almost done, still need to clear some old clothes in e cupboard. I hate CNY. Dunno which idiot came out of spring cleaning ideal for CNY.
Tat day sms A's gf for a payment that A owed me. Who ask her kpo to help A to negotiate with me when i sms him. So chase after her la. That no balls bastard. She suddenly ask me alot of weird weird qs. I choose not to tell her cos that belongs to our past not her's, y shld i tell. Told her that since she had her dreamz come true le y bothered by who loves who before, just enjoy e lovin moments la. She ans me she felt guilty, is not her dreamz to snatch him from me. Told her not to bull shit, if she really feel guilty den she won't hurt me in her blog. Then i asked myself this: she where got so 好死 to admit she is guilty.
I PUI! True enough lor, saw a comments on her blog abt me again. She really leading a peaceful life lor, nothi to do lei. Part of her comments was' break le still got so many thgs to say, 吃不到葡萄说葡萄酸......' wah...... Damn hot de lor. Infront of me abt innocent n pity, behind me shoot me wor. I was so angry i tell myself forget abt e $ la, just go change new no. then i can lead my life peacefully lor. But now come to Thk of it, i PUI PUI PUI PUI lor! When borrow that time can just take $2-300 at 1 short. Now give way to them, pay me back $100 every month also cannot make it. Some more i ask for payment can tell me lapse this month. Lapsed 2 month liao...... Ooi, who owed who $ lei, still can be so ya ya.....
Now i dun care. I want every single cents back from him. Is my hard earned money. After i collected my money from them. Then is show time, till then i won't give face de lor....... Now i 忍 忍 忍! 
E rain just nice. Shld be able to make me sleep better ba......
My world just crushed again. Mayb i'm just sensitive, difficult to understand or handle ba. Talk to my brother, as now still havin cold shoulder with my mum. Talk to mummy as i'm tryin to washed my hands off her business. But both conversation gives me a feelin that my point is not being aknowledge. Watever! Who cares la!
Oh, give me a home where the buffalo roams
Where the dear and the antelop play
Where seldom is heard a discouraging words and the skies are not cloudy all day
Home, home on the range
where the dears and the antelop play
Where seldom is heard a discouraging words and the skies are not cloudy all day.......
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Dom says wanna help me to get a laptop! m so excited! Tomorrow we gonna see which 1 to get. Hopefully all goes well. So i can update my blog everyday not using my phone le. Gprs damn expensive de lor.
M so so disappointed with mummy le. M really unable to give her any more help in this kind of it takes 2 hand to clapped situation le.
Had been a gd gal, never drink to sleep le. Never reply KZ n V 's sms. Never pick up Travis - e dog's call. Keep it up lor.
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