Tuesday, October 30, 2007
以前的我, 会为朋友、为爱情、为家人不顾一切。当时间慢慢的流失，年纪慢慢的大，才发现不是每件事都是自己想像的那么单纯和简单。当你被现实生活磨练过后，你才会明白人生有时会比你想像的还要残酷。有时也不明白为什么自己吃到这把年纪了怎么还是看不透…有时甚至还要一头栽进去，还要相信别人的屁话。明明知道如果一个人爱你的话，他会不顾一切的为你付出。但你偏偏要为一个不爱你的人不顾一切，还天真的相信他会为你的付出而感动，会试着更用心去对待你。但并不是每个人都会用心去对待每一个人。
人往往活在矛盾中。当你以为你没了谁，日子会非常难过；但如果你仔细的算一算，其实他离开你的日子也过了一段时候自己也孤单了这一段时候。自己是怎么过的也搞了清楚。有时离开了还想爱的人，会担心他没了你日子还好吗？还会不会像以前一样忘了做这样或拿那样？但再试着想想，没和你在一起前；他不也这样的过着他的日子。
爱我的人和我爱的人有什么分别？分别在于：爱我的人会不顾一切的，无条件的为我付出，永远的等我回心转意。但我却没对他的付出有过任何感动。而我爱的人却头也不回的离我而去，也没为我所付出的有任何愧疚，留下的只有无情的伤害和绝情的回忆。有时想知道他过的还好吗？我觉得只要你心里希望他是过得好，那是最好的答案。因为如果是从别人口中知道他现在过得很幸福很开心…那我可以告诉你，你听了会捶心肝。因为爱情是不能够做比较的，只是他留给你的回忆是多还是少而已。
爱情，是每一个人学习旅程中最难懂的一课！每个人学习的时间都不同，得到的知识也不一样。爱情这一课不能死背，只能靠感觉。有人害怕不及格，所以不敢去尝试；有人自信满满，然而却伤得很深。没有人能逃过这一课，否则你永远都不及格。爱情这一课没有教学课本，只能亲身体验；没有快速读法，只能用一生慢慢去揣摩。也许有人会问：“什么时候才能知道自己是否及格？”很遗憾的！只能等你走完人生的那一课，那也是考试放榜的那一刻。
Saturday, October 27, 2007
I accidentally took this pic that day accidentally. But i like it. Never took pic like this before, no smile. Gonna make this blog Abit more private. No 1 disturb u to talk all e things u dun like. N no 1 will stop u from writting anythi. I realised that a person can Thk better when u r more 冷静. U knw who is real n who is not, i like it this way. I din realise that this is 1 gd thing abt being single. All good things really come to an end, so do bad things. Saw an ad over on e news paper. Is this plc at Sabah, need to go frenster to look up my fren to bring me there. Slept at 3 plus this morn. Now Abit tired le. Really must have good rest. If not really look haggard le. Nite..... 
Just now went dinner with my frens @ Geylang, after dinner e kids wanted ice creams so we went for ice cream @ Siglap. On our way to Siglap, i recieved a sms n 5 miss calls from his new love. Neither i reply or ans her calls cos her sms was askin abt somethi we did in our past, i felt that i do have e rite not to tell her anythi abt our past. Wat past is past, she shld start a new life with him. Another reason is after wat she say abt me to others n to me, e more i shldn't tell her wat she wants to knw, as that memories belongs to me, she have no rite to compare. Is up to him on how to treat her. Y she compare me? N not with his ex- ex? Cos i good to be bully? I dun owe her anythi too........... As i'm not e 3ard party when she came into e relationship. All her words r full of needles. I'll never forget wat she did, say abt me n to me. Be it she happy or not, i'm not gonna oblige her as i'm not her puppet. Since she tells everyone she is so 幸福, then she shouldn't be so bothered by our past. N this is not her 1st time to get upset when anythi links to me, blame it on his man. As he is a coward man who dun admit his faults n his wrong doing. I'm really really tired abt all these le..... Really wants to keep all e good memories n not e bad ones, whenever she do this it makes me felt so terrible, till now still can't sleep, hands still trembling. E only good thing is i did not drink, if not, i'll feel worst.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Saw this longan which my mum has bought, looks like a snow man but is brown in color. So i gave it eyes n smile, now it looks exactly like my elder brother! Haha..... Hope he dun get to read my blog. Today my gf called to invite me to a dinner- is actually a 10 course dinner. Last yr was her wedding so she got an extra table left n only available for her 1 yr anniversary. I didn't agreed to go cos i'm Abit upset with her, n A went to that dinner with me last yr n left lots of happy memories there. He looks so handsome that Nite too. Anyway she told me T will be there too n that is e main reason i'm not going. Dun wanna see his face, that day he ask me go out i also turn him dwn. Is angry de lor...... Anyway, my Salsa intemediate 1 is startin next wed lor, her dinner is on my 2nd class. So i'm not going to give up 1 lesson bcos of e dinner lor, also i might turn out wierd as i dunno her frens well. I'll feel so left out. I dun wanna trigger my memories too.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
寂寞夜 想你的人还没睡 挽不回让往事各分飞情到浓时总在抬头就落泪 无处退 彷徨的心彷佛被撕碎 最怕黑 最怕回忆上心扉 回不去又不知如何面对 梦已累 爱疲惫 对我 你是否真的无所谓 你的一切都让我心碎 却又无法再给我安慰 口中的誓言只能够随风飞 赤热的心如今已冷却 情到浓时 人憔悴 爱到深处 心不悔 念你忘你 都不对 宁愿伤心自己背 不怨沧天不怨谁 人生不过梦一回 观看花开又花谢 却又缘起又缘灭
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
This insect was flying around e living room then landed on my uncle's photo, whom pass away a month back. My mum say is my uncle's spirit. Sound unbelievable right? I was quite close to it, then it follow me to my room. This morn it died. Today i watch e Jay Chou's movie. Very touching..... Cried e whole afternoon today. Mayb because some1 did not accompany 4 breakfast. I'm not going in to read her things le. So drama, just like her name- always building castle in e air. Dunno which is true which is not. Might as well use that time go learn somethi. Read her things only waste time waste $. If i got affected by wat she say, then i'm not much different from her. 
Took this from my colleague's shirt. I find it cute but my bro- Dom says that it look like got strike by lightning. Hmmm...... So bad. I really dun wanna go in n view her blog le. Is pulling me dwn, n i dun like e feeling. Another 3 more days i'm gonna part with that ring. This time really No More I Love U. 
E sky so cloudy..... Just like my mood. Recently so many things happened around me n to me, i really wish everythi would go away. If there is really 孟婆茶in life, i'll choose to drink it. So that all e happy n unhappy things will not trigger e deepest feelin in my heart n can start everythi anew. I dun have to drink every Nite, i felt so miserable n helpless every time i'm drunk but i still have to put on a strong side so all who loves me dun have to worry abt me. I really wish to let go..... 
I just bought this phone. Quite cool but dun have e function i wanted. Haiz..... Just heard from some1 that he seems like enjoyed his bdae. Actually Glad to hear that, kena called 'that woman' again. Like i'm e 3ard party. Not going to indulge in e past le. Seems like everyone is moving forward except me. Tonight gonna enjoy myself, get drunk, be happy. Another 11 days to go, 1s e ring is gone. I promise i'll behave myself n move forward proudly. I CAN MAKE IT AND I WILL.
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