Haven't wrote anythi here for so many days le. Had 2 bad news within 48 hrs. 1 is my gf's daughter hospitalised for leukemia at e age of 11. Other 1 is my good buddy cum sister is 5 mths pregnant n she dun even knew it till she went to e Dr. Was so worried that she would abort it as e guy is only her ex cum sex partner. Thk she still got feel for him ba. Was pretty happy when she decided to keep e bb, n also annouced that i'm half a mother of e bb gal, then she came back with a news that e guy won't marry her but still do his responsibility. I dunno how could she take it. If is for me, i felt that that guy only do it 4 e bb, he dun mind just to have my gf as a companion...... M Abit upset, felt hurt too. But if she Thk she is happy abt it, then i give her my support. Went boat quay Ydae. My bro put on my glasses so i took a pic of him. He looks like Prawn cracker seller..... Haha...., had a small arguement with another gf on e same Nite. She give out a comment that i keep doing all e bb stuff by myself n dun let go. I'm Abit upset. Cos i really love e bb, i love my dear. I really wanna treat her like my own to give her my best of best. Give my gf good planning so she won't feel so stress. But now i Thk i'm e 1 who is feelin stress. I've cook her dinner, but was in e afternoon. So i hope she'll eat it early, as i afraid e food turn bad. But she just simply ignore. When i reach e bar. She told me she vomited in e afternoon. So i suppose she won't really had appetite, so not to waste e food i pass it to my bro n my gf - M( e 1 who upset me with that comment) as i afraid e later it is, e food will turn sour or spoilt. So after e argument, M told me that e mummy was hungry n dun dare to touch e snack platter as she afraid i'll get angry for she never eat wat i cook. I knw is a messy story, but i wonder y every1 so afraid of me, i feel very sad to say that they can't feel my love n concern. They r just afraid of me. mummy call me later that Nite, told me that she break e news to her sis, n her sis is quite supportive abt it, so e last thing to do is to break e news to her mum. M glad that her sis is so supportive as no matter how supportive all e buddy r, it still can't b compare to her family. I also knw 1 thg, no matter how good i can do, this bb forever is some1's daughter. I shld see it clearly, n back off few steps. Let them do thgs to help her. M not jealous abt my concern is not being appreciated but jus upset that m just a nobody n yet i'm makin decision for her n might even upset them. Mayb i should give them air to breath be it mummy or my brothers. I shouldn't be too harsh on them. Then i won't feel so upset for i knw i'm that kind of person, wat ever i do to for them, i hope they can feel my love. But if they misunderstood my view, i'll be upset n back off. That is e prob with me which i always can't learn - i care n worried too much.